Bring The Rain

Today is day 50...days of crying, days of fear, days of pain, days of sadness, days of despair sprinkled with days of hope, brilliance, joy, peace and thankfulness...I can count a million times...People asking me how I Can praise You with all that I've gone through...The question just amazes me...Can circumstances possibly Change who I forever am in You...How can I praise YOU when I know that the outcome may not be what I want? How can I survive this trial? My heart knows that You are worthy of praise, whether my mother lives or not. You are worthy of praise because you are GOD and not because of what you do but because of WHO you are...Bring me joy, bring me peace...Bring the chance to be free...Bring me anything that brings You glory...And I know there'll be days... When this life brings me pain...But if that's what it takes to praise You Jesus, bring the rain...I want to bring you glory in this situation but I have no idea how...I want you to "bring the rain" but I feel its been pouring for years...and I'm exhausted...sometimes I feel like you have given me way more than I can handle...I don't want to be this strong...I don't want to make these decisions...I don't want to watch my mother waste away while modern medicine fails us...Maybe since my life was changed...Long before these rainy days...It's never really ever crossed my mind...To turn my back on you, oh Lord...My only shelter from the storm...But instead I draw closer through these times...So I pray...You have given me rainy days since I was in my early teens...I got angry, I yelled, I cried and I protested but I never left...twelve years later and I am still crying for you to give my parent life...my only refuge is knowing that you took care of me during my last loss and if you choose to take my mom home...that I will survive that loss too...though I am not ready...I am yours regardless of the clouds that may loom above because you are much greater than my pain...you who made a way for me...suffering your destiny...so tell me whats a little rain...I draw closer to you thru each new trial and I feel your arms wrapped around me...my soul cries out for you...my heart silently screams because I can't find the words anymore...I am asking You for life so that You may be glorified in the miracle...Holy, holy, holy...Holy, holy, holy is the lord God almighty...is the lord God almighty...I'm forever singing...

I can count a million times

People asking me how I
Can praise You with all that
I've gone through
The question just amazes me
Can circumstances possibly
Change who I forever am in You

Maybe since my life was changed
Long before these rainy days
It's never really ever crossed my mind
To turn my back on you, oh Lord
My only shelter from the storm
But instead I draw closer through these times
So I pray

Bring me joy, bring me peace
Bring the chance to be free
Bring me anything that brings
You glory And I know there'll
be days When this life brings me pain
But if that's what it takes to
praise You Jesus, bring the rain

I am yours regardless of the clouds that may
loom above because you are much greater than
my pain you who made a way for me suffering
your destiny so tell me whats a little rain

[1st Chorus]

Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
is the lord God almighty
is the lord God almighty
I'm forever singing

[2nd Chorus 2x]

everybody singing
Holy holy holy
you are holy
you are holy